Happy New Year, friends!
It’s been a while since I’ve blogged. I hope you’ve been following along on Instagram and Facebook. If not, let me catch you up super quick.
Hubs turned 40 this fall and to celebrate, I planned a surprise trip to Mexico for him with a couple of his friends. We had so much fun relaxing and enjoying the sun, but the highlight was our excursion to the jungle, swimming in a cenote, climbing Coba Maya (full disclosure, Hubs is the only one who went all the way to the top), zip lining, and repelling.
When we returned home, we drove down to Rochester, MN for an appointment at the Mayo Clinic on his actual 40th birthday. Hubs was diagnosed over a year ago with a scary but manageable heart condition. He’s been on heart medication since, hoping several times to wean himself from it and the condition would correct itself. It didn’t. This appointment ultimately led to the decision to schedule a cardiac ablation (look it up). The 5 hour procedure took place at the Mayo the day after Christmas and while we are hopeful that it was successful, only time will tell. That brings us into the new year!
The three pictures above are my favorite from our trip to Mexico and also a good metaphor to how the end of our year felt for me. It was TERRIFYING!! I cried at the top of this cliff AND before Hubs’ procedure. At times I felt like we were hanging by a rope in mid-air. But faith sustained me and we loved and lauhed our way through all of it. I was so proud of myself for overcoming my anxiety and going for it anyway at the top of that cliff. And I was so proud of my husband for facing a pretty scary heart procedure in the hopes that it would improve his quality of life and cure his heart condition.
As this new year has begun, I have been reflecting on the events of the last four months. What am I afraid of? What can I let go of? What do I think I can’t do that I may find so rewarding if I just go for it? Again, that question begs itself from my heart; “How will I best spend the time I have in this one, precious life I’ve been granted?”
Every time I looked at my calendar in 2017, I felt overwhelmed and anxious. Between my job, after school kids, our own kids’ year round sports schedule, and running a baking business, there was precious little time left over. I have known that something needed to give, but I was afraid of letting go and what it would mean.
I decided this year not to renew my bakery license at the commercial rental kitchen. This isn’t a significant change, as I can still bake from home under the MN Cottage Food Law. The weddings already booked for this year remain unaffected. But it may mean that I will turn down a few weddings/events if the venue requires the baker to be licensed. My hope is that with small changes to our schedule, 2018 will be less overwhelming and I will have more time to pursue other interests, or maybe just do nothing much at all. Who knows, maybe I’ll find another cliff to repel off of.
Just kidding. One time was plenty for me.
There are other dreams and ventures I’m terrified of that I may decide to go for in 2018. And there may be other things I have yet to face that I will need to let go. I’m excited to see what this year holds for me and our family.
p.s. If you’re a friend or family that usually gets Christmas cards from us, please know that you were not nixed this year. Every time I went online to design one, I was again overwhelmed. So I let that go. We didn’t do cards this year. Besides, I really wanted to use one of the above pictures of just the two of us, but thought I might be judged for not including a picture with the kids. Maybe I should let go of that too… 😉